1 year, 9 Months and a day sober.

I can’t escape the feeling of being a disappointment or being a failure today. Like Somehow I’m still not ✨doing enough✨. I know I’m doing enough, and I know this feeling will pass, but my feelings just aren’t listening. 

It’s been a while since I’ve done a sobriety update, and a day where I’m feeling down on myself seems like a good day to shout my accomplishments to the internet. 

I, with the help of my business partner and an incredible support system of friends, family and employees have managed to get a new business open, idk if you’ve heard of it yet or not 😂. Let me tell you, I’ve never felt so lost or tempted in my whole life as I was when we  developed the menu, fruity tropical boozy drinks? In this heat!? Pass me one! But I stayed strong, I straw tested a few, but set some pretty strict limits. 

I got myself a mans! That’s been a (really fun) roller coaster, anyone who’s known me for the last decade or so know that I haven’t been in a relationship, let alone a serious one for that decade or more. And His name is Chris, and he’s wonderful. Nobody tell him, but I think I like him a lot. 

That’s just two really great things of the thousands of wins, smiles and laughs that have happened over the last 21 months, so much good that’s it’s hard to remember it all.

Sometimes days like today a person needs to remind themselves of all they have, and where they’ve come from. Some perspective. Typing all this has helped quite a bit actually. Thank you for reading, no matter what you’re going through today, it’s will pass.